R & R (Rants and Regrets)

This would probably be the second time I would be transferring tables due to strong winds today. I almost forgot to buy cigarettes...I'll probably get a pack later. What the hell.

If you're one of my friends in my facebook account, you'd probably see one of my shout-outs wishing I'd go back ten years ago. I've never told anyone as to why I said such a thing like that. I'm currently living my life in the fast-lane, kissing aussie boots for eight hours by day and rushing to school for night classes. I'm able to buy the things and pamper myself with my wants for any given day. It's probably the kind of life anyone would want.

I hope you could sense a lot of bull on my last statement because it sure is.

I shouldn't be using my blogs for my usual rants. Not because in a "business" aspect, it won't be good for the influx of money (after all, making money is all they can think about and nothing else. Manpower is probably the only factor I know that can be replaced and disposed of emotionlessly), but I guess I wouldn't want to turn this blog as a reason to pour out my heartaches everytime I'm experiencing it. After all... reading or listening to someone else's problems is tiring (Well... La-dee-dah. We all have problems... Why the hell should I listen to yours?)

I just wish I could go back ten years ago. To correct the mistakes that I've done... Maybe right now, I could be somewhere where I can really make a difference, not just in my life but also on others. Maybe right now I'm not living with my folks, but on a condo complex paying my bills with no trace of worries. Maybe then using public transportation is something that I'll do to relive and remember what it's like to be one with the rest. Maybe I'd be more stable as a person... If I hadn't considered living life too easily then maybe I'd be someone a lot of people could look up on.

Reality bites that regrets linger in the end. I've learned that the hard way, and I'm still paying for it. Maybe that's something inevitable. Maybe that's something written in my blood already.

Probably tomorrow's a different day. Oh well.